| funnychicken ( @ 2006-09-15 20:34:00 |
| Current mood: | frustrated |
| Current music: | living room - tegan and sara |
i told mum i'm gay....
*bangs head against wall*
I told mum. and i dont think she belvies me still. SO INFURIATING! *bangs head against the wall some more*
In like march this year, i told mum i was thinking abuot my sexuality, and all she said was "dont worry kim, i'm sure your into men" *rolls eyes*
So tonight, i sit down with her and say... "u kno how earlier this year i told u i was thinking about my sexuality... well i'm pretty sure i'm gay. I'm not compltely sure if I'm bi or gay, but i know that i like girls. and at the moment, i dont like boys." and she asked me what made me think this. so i told her i was in love with penny. then she goes and asks all these stoopid questions about me and pens relationship, like have i told her i love her, and what di she say when i told her, and how open about it is pen and stuff. Ugh. SO FRUSTRATING! So after some more questions about how do i know how i feel about people, she tells me not to make a buig deal out of it. and not to broadcast it. BLOODY HELL! Just becuase i'm telling her does not mean i'm broadcasting it! So i asked her if she was ashamed of it, or if it made her uncomfortable, but she said it didnt. Then i got up and got myself some dinner and tried to escape to my room, but no, she stops me and says i spend all my time locked up in my room and never spend any time with her. So i sit down on the couch next to her and she turns around and goes on the computer! I mean come on, what the fuck!?! Tell me to spend more time with her and then ignore me? So i started talking to her again... and finished my dinner. Then Asked her if i cud go back to my room. and she said i cud. so here i am! Mum knows that i like girls. Even if she is in denial. She also knows I'm in love with penny. Altho she tried to tell me that i'm not really in love with her... *glares*
So yeah, thats my 'coming out' story i guess.... pretty uneventful. I mean telling my mates and stuff was a peice of piss! But telling mum, she just doesnt beleive me! Gah! Even grainne beleived me! I thought mum had figured it out, after pen staying ehre and stuff. but no, she's either in denial BIG TIME or is even stupider then i thought.
*bangs head against the wall somemore*
frustrated